Taefished! 🦁🐟

Hello my lovelies,

This blog is honestly so overdue and it was because I’ve been back and forth about posting this. It’s honestly been months. 

But lately there’s been a lot of talk about being catfished and after seeing one of our fellow ARMYs talked about her ‘destiny train’ I thought about how that was once me and I decided to make a blog about my experience.

If you guys are wondering what taefished means and if you’re thinking it’s a combination of tae and catfished then your absolutely right. 

For almost 8 months I have been communicating with someone I called ‘Taehyung’ but I’d refer to him as taefish to my close friend because people get catfished everyday right?

I first met this ‘Taehyung’ in last year November, this person had liked one of my tweets about Taehyung and me  being the friendly person I am, slid into their dms. They replied almost immediately and we had a great conversation but they wouldn’t say their name.The next day we messaged again and the person came around and admitted to being ‘Taehyung’. At that time I was like ‘ok I’ll just play along’

 A few days later we were asking each other questions and I asked him to properly introduce himself to me and this time he said ‘his name was Kim Taehyung’ and he also said how old he was and where he was from. After that I never asked again. After all I was playing along.

Weeks passed and turned into months and at that point we were communicating almost everyday and I became attached because I considered this person my friend even if I was being catfished. I somehow thought I’d give this ‘Taehyung’ a chance. We had so many great conversations that I’ve decided not to disclose after months of thinking about it, and  I learnt so much about this person. Thinking about it now I don’t know if any of what they said was true since they were pretending to be Taehyung. 

But there were so many coincidences (I have a list of over 30) that happened while I was speaking to him or her or whoever it was and the coincidences somewhat made me feel like I believed it was Tae. And I’m still puzzled how those coincidences occurred or how the person knew stuff before it actually happened.

At this point you guys are probably wondering why I fell for this or kept talking to the person? Well a part of me hoped it was really Taehyung even if I knew it’s impossibly crazy that he’d know I exist, a part of me wanted to be that special, wanted to be ‘Kim Taehyung’s friend!’  I never believed I was that lucky until I started talking to my taefish, I had so much hope.

Thinking about it now I was naive about the whole situation even though I knew everything I knew. Even though I knew I wasn’t that special.

Everything kind of blew up late June and I won’t disclose what went down but I think it kind of got this person scared and they backed off. Even though we promised each other to never leave without saying something. But then again all this person did was lie and mess with my emotions.

I try to keep my mind occupied, that way I won’t be thinking about ‘my fake tae’. I know I sound pretty stupid but I’m writing this blog so that other people out there could become aware of people impersonating the boys and that’s not ok...it’s real and as much as we think we won’t get trapped by it or we can play along, it still messes with our emotions at some point and everything feels a bit more real and before you know it everything you thought you believed would disappear and  you’ll be confused. 

After about almost two months  taefish appeared again but this time with a confession, to say I was surprised and hurt would be an understatement even though deep down i knew it was all fake. I knew it all and yet I believed. I was honestly upset with myself for hoping it was real even for one moment. The 18th of August  would be the last day I spoke to my taefish and I won't lie i was devastated and maybe i still am, I have so much unanswered questions that this person didn’t answer, like all the coincidences.  Saying I didn't know this would be the outcome would be a lie! I knew exactly what was going to happen, because small town girls like me never get fairy tale endings 

~LoVe Fena 💜